thedeadparrot: (oracle)
(posted by on Mar. 12th, 2017 07:39 pm)
I always forget the annoying/bad parts of PAX every time I go back. The lines. The too many people. The orgy of consumerism. There's plenty that I enjoy, too, but man, there's plenty that I hate about it.

Here's an incomplete list of things I played and enjoyed. Mostly so that I don't forget them later.

Game I Tell People About When They Ask What I Saw At PAX

Elsinore - Do you ever experience Hamlet and ask yourself, Man, if only Ophelia were stuck in a time loop that she could only escape once she stopped everyone from murdering each other? Well, do I have a game for you. The build I played was still relatively new and filled with minor annoyances (omg, slow the fuck down so I can talk to you. so I went to the place and then did the thing, now what?). But I do love time loops as a mechanic, and I do love Shakespeare, so this is right up my alley.

Game That Is a Sequel to an Indie Game I Like

Steamworld Dig 2 - Stemworld Dig is such a pleasantly tight game. You dig your way through the ground, collecting gems along the way, and then making your way back up to the surface with your loot when your bag is full. This seems to be more of the same, though I'm a little worried about how some of the magic may be lost once it gets bigger. I also need to play Steamworld Heist which is very different mechanically, but also looks like a ton of fun.

Game That I Really Want to Play More Of Right Now

Ticket To Earth - There's apparently a storyline that goes with this game, but I didn't get to see it in the demo I played. It seems like a pretty fun tactical RPG designed for mobile devices, with the 'twist' being that the floor is made up of colored tiles. You can only walk on one set of colored tiles per turn and walking on those tiles charge up your special abilities. It was pleasing to both the parts of my brain that enjoy tactical turn-based games like XCOM and the parts of my brain that like Match-3 games.

Game That Compelled and Confused Me In Equal Measures But Hopefully Won't In the Final Version

Moonlighter - Both a management sim and an adventure-y dungeon crawl? The Dungeon Crawl parts were excellent and delightful. I didn't get the management sim parts, but that might be because it needs some more polish and/or explanation? The art is lovely and I stuck with it so long I missed texts telling me to meet up with my friends.

Game That Has an Adorable Slug-Cat in It

Rain World - I am not good at this game, but it was pretty, and I enjoyed watching other people play it.

Game That Is Basically Monument Valley, Which Isn't the Worst Thing in the World To Be

Where Shadows Slumber - Instead of weird 3-dimensional Escher-like manipulations, you have a lantern and manipulate shadows. Not as inherently awesome, but the devs were super open to feedback when talking to them, so hopefully the final product will sparkle.


Other things I did/saw:

Utility Kilts Booth - idk why, but this delighted me. Kilts! But functional ones! I'm sure it has a very specific niche and I'm happy for them.

Escape Room panel - I haven't really done escape rooms, but my friends wanted to see this panel, and I'm glad I did. It was fun to listen to the panelists talk about the struggle of being in a fledgling industry. I definitely need to gather people together to attempt one.
thedeadparrot: (staring at the sun)
(posted by on Feb. 22nd, 2017 09:05 pm)
And it's knitting. Well, it's a new thing, and I already spent money on expensive yarn because I didn't know any better. Whoops.

I am enjoying it a lot, though. It's great for watching TV or movies. I like how quickly you can pick up the motions. I like making things.

Er, a lot of patterns are still intimidating right now, so I'm making a boring scarf with my expensive yarn, and maybe gift it to someone when I finish? Hopefully? I'm not even sure I have enough yarn right now to finish this scarf yet. But I'm learning things! And maybe I can raid the yarn stashes of a few of my friends at some point?

I also spent this whole weekend drowning in my Mike Richards feelings. He briefly resurfaced! He genuinely seems happy these days! I still desperately want future fic where he becomes a hotshot NHL coach and ends up on the team that Jeff Carter is GMing and they have Complicated Old People Feelings that I can eat with a spoon.

Speaking of Complicated Old People Feelings, I am getting so, so close to finishing a first draft of my X-Men fic. I think I just have one more scene left! And then I will sit down and cry from how much work this fic needs. But that's okay! Making things! I like doing it!
thedeadparrot: (nowhere man)
(posted by on Feb. 14th, 2017 05:12 am)
Chugging along with this one fic that I thought might just be emotional arcs, and it turns out that it's also like, growing a plot as well. It's the worst! Why, writing, whyyyyyy.

I finished reading the psychic wolves books. I'm not sure if I would recommend them to others, necessarily. But they were generally entertaining and had fun worldbuilding with their fake Vikings who bang each other.

Oh, and I wrote some psychic wolf fic (for Lupercalia) myself:

sweeter than heaven, hotter than hell (4414 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Hockey RPF
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jeff Carter/Mike Richards
Characters: Mike Richards, Jeff Carter
Additional Tags: Psychic Wolves, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot
Summary:

Arnold's the one who's getting very thoroughly laid wolf-style, and Mike's here in his hotel room, very much not getting laid. Good thing Jeff's around to help him out.

thedeadparrot: (batman begins)
(posted by on Feb. 12th, 2017 04:37 pm)
It was delightful, ridiculously self-aware and meta, but with a genuine heart at the center of it.

I was having a good Saturday already, but seeing it with [personal profile] bironic made it all the better. :DDDD

Talk to me if you've seen it as well.
thedeadparrot: (oh the angst)
(posted by on Feb. 7th, 2017 07:09 am)
'Til You Make It (4100 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Don't Trust the B---- in Apartment 23
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Chloe/June Colburn
Additional Tags: Fake/Pretend Relationship, Ellen Page's Birthday Party
Summary:


"I ran into Ellen Page yesterday in a Duane Reade condiments aisle," Chloe says. "Gave her this long sob story about my girlfriend and her tragic medical condition that makes her eyes really big and forces her to wear ugly sweaters, and she invited me to her birthday party."



Written for [personal profile] emef as part of [tumblr.com profile] fandomtrumpshate, who wanted fake dating shenanigans.
thedeadparrot: (it's alright)
(posted by on Feb. 2nd, 2017 07:01 pm)
It's been tough. I know it's been tough for a lot of people. Every day brings fresh new horrors, and I can't help but think of and remember how quickly the Nazis came to power. I feel obligated to pay attention and to act. There was a large protest against the anti-Muslim ban that I went to, just to be there and to be counted. I've been figuring out how and when to call my representatives.

But yeah, it's easy to burn out that way. I've been trying to manage my anxiety and depression levels in various ways. Work just told me that I'm probably going onto a different team and didn't tell me who my teammates were going to be, working two levels under a former boss who I really really don't like. So that didn't help.

Here's what I'm doing to try to deal with all of these things:

- Talked to another coworker who is going to be moved at the same time as me, who is sharing a lot of my apprehension and who expressed a sadness that we might not be working together anymore.

- Writing. I wonder if I just write more when I'm stressed and anxious and depressed. It would probably explain why I didn't write a whole lot last year except for in the winter when my SAD was probably at its worst. But on the other hand, hopefully it means that everyone else can enjoy the fruits of my labor. I'm currently working on my [tumblr.com profile] fandomtrumpshate fic for [personal profile] emef, in fact.

- Exercise. I have a schedule for how my weeks go, and I'm trying to stick to it. Even when I just want to go home and not do anything. It's been helpful. I like feeling my body move and seeing what it's capable of. And it helps me sleep better.

- Psychic Wolves. Okay, so this is partly a joke and partly a real trope that I have been enjoying thoroughly. Magically bonded animal companions! Weird sex stuff! I have finished reading one book and a whole bunch of fic on this topic. They're great. I'm reading one of the sequels to the book right now.

- Critical Role and other forms of entertainment. Caring too much about fictional characters is obviously a big part of my life, so it's natural that it's comforting to care so much when the stakes are so low.


Anyway, that's what I'm doing. I hope all of you guys are holding up as well.
thedeadparrot: (saving the world)
(posted by on Jan. 21st, 2017 05:04 pm)
Okay there was a tweet about trying to preserve our thoughts and feelings and impressions of this day, so here is my attempt.

Went to the local Women's March today in Boston. It was kinda cold at first, but then it got warm. Tons and tons of people (estimates had it at 135k-150k). Many, possibly even most, of them in homemade knit hats.

Spent a lot of time being jealous of all the really great signs. Considered getting a Non-Compliant or Rebel Alliance tattoo briefly.

Ate a lot of granola bars. Hung out with fangirls and speculated about our new favorite fannish trope (imagine your OTP meeting by climbing the same tree at a protest!)

Stood around a lot. Hopped up and down a bunch. Listened to a boatload of speakers. Didn't actually march because it was taking too long to leave Boston Common and get on the parade route.

Enjoyed social media afterwards. So many great photos of all the different Marches all across the country and the world.

We have a privilege here in our state that our hippie progressive ideals are part of the establishment. We had both our Senators and our Attorney General and the Boston mayor speak at the event promising to do all they can to continue being hippie progressives. The police was on good terms with the demonstrators. No reports of violence.

I am not sure if I was comforted by the display of solidarity so much as I felt a sweeping reminder of the gritty difficult work of enacting change. If anything, this election has helped galvanize me into more concrete action. I have always been politically aware, and I was slowly drifting towards becoming politically active. But now I have various reps' offices on my phone. Now I have monthly donations set up to support causes I care about. Now I'm feeling the pressure to roll up my sleeves and get to work.

So that's what I'm going to do.
thedeadparrot: (self-portrait me)
(posted by on Jan. 21st, 2017 05:55 am)
I hate New Year's Resolutions because I think any changes you want to make in your life should happen as soon as you think of them. So here's a sort-of list.

1. Survive.
2. Help as many other people survive as I can.

Also, because I've seen this a lot: It's okay if you can't do things! I spent like all of December in a fugue state reading and writing fic because I could deal with any of it. That's okay! I called my various reps about the ACA last week.

Almost every day, I remind myself that it's okay to set your own boundaries about activism. Forgiving yourself for stopping makes it easier to go back to doing the thing. We figure out what we can do. We do what we can. Just because some of us can do more doesn't mean that what little we can do is meaningless.

Also, shout outs to all of you guys. Thanks for being here with me. Love you all. <3
thedeadparrot: (obvious place)
(posted by on Jan. 18th, 2017 05:22 am)
Wild Magic (3587 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Hockey RPF
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Jeff Carter/Mike Richards
Characters: Mike Richards, Jeff Carter
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Magical Realism, Hunters & Hunting, Animal Butchering
Summary:


On the ice, he careens into opposing players, he fires off slapshots, he wins faceoffs, and he gets into fights. He does it all with the taste of the lake's water on his tongue, the feel of its winter ice underneath his skates. Some of the other witches chirp him for cheating, for using his magic where it's not allowed. But they don't get it. Mike's magic has never been something he does. It's always been something he is.



In case you really wanted to read about deer butchering today or something.
thedeadparrot: (need for speed)
(posted by on Jan. 14th, 2017 04:02 pm)
I went to a parkour workshop today, and it was super great. My back and arms are sore because I went to class yesterday, and I have an ugly bruise on my right knee from screwing up a jump (which is exhibit D of a future post entitled 'Athletes have disgusting bodies'). I do have a longer post that I would like to write about why I love this sport so much, but I have not had enough time to gather my thoughts.

The rest of my weekend will probably involve sitting on my couch, working on a third fic that I will write and never post, and hunt down authors to bid on for [tumblr.com profile] fandomtrumpshate. (There's a very long list of people offering things if you want to try to skim it to find authors you might recognize.)

I am thrilled that I have the cash to actually bid for things in one of these big fandom auctions. I'm eager to get into bidding wars over some of the ones that I've already bid on (so yeah, if you are at all hesitant about hurting my feelings by bidding against me, I am actually really excited to tangle with you).

And I dunno. If I'm feeling mostly recovered by Monday, I might go ice skating. That could be fun. Maybe I'll even learn how to stop like a real skater instead of just running into walls.
thedeadparrot: (going places)
(posted by on Jan. 12th, 2017 09:45 pm)
I'm offering up fic for auction as part of [tumblr.com profile] fandomtrumpshate! Bidding starts now and runs for about a week (Jan. 19).

If you're confused about this, there's an FAQ for the auction with tons of information.

I have a contributor profile over on Tumblr.

If you want to read any one of my 200-odd fics that I've managed to write over the years to know what you're getting into, you can check out my AO3 page.

As for the specifics of what I'm offering up:
Type of fanwork: fic
Fandom(s): X-Men Movieverse, MCU, Star Wars (but not only these ones, see below)
Rating(s): G, Teen, Mature, Explicit
Length/size: up to 5k words, 5-10k words
Will not: A/B/O, MPreg, Steve/Tony
Notes: I’m willing to negotiate on the specifics of the story if there’s a fandom and/or pairing that I have written in the past or you think I may know but I haven’t listed here. I’m pretty flexible about that sort of thing, and I’d like to make you (the bidder) happy.

I know I'm kind of winging it by saying I can offer between 5-10k words, but if the original fic I write isn't long enough, I'll write another to make up the difference.

Helpful post about bidding in this auction

I've got a bidding spreadsheet where you can see current bids and a bidding form if you want to place your own bids.

I basically stole the format of this post from [personal profile] bironic, who is offering up a vid! (and who links to other awesome people who are offering things up in her post)
thedeadparrot: (oracle)
(posted by on Jan. 8th, 2017 08:54 am)
So I went to go see it last night, and A+, enjoyed it quite a bit, but I also had a lot of thoughts about it that I figure I might as well articulate here, while I'm trying to be more active on DW.

spoilers? )
thedeadparrot: (moby play)
(posted by on Jan. 6th, 2017 08:53 pm)
Hi, new people! I have mostly used this journal to talk about fandom, complain about petty bullshit, and sometimes mention what sorts of physical activities I've been doing.

I haven't really posted in a while, but here's a list of things I am currently into (or could be into, maybe):
  1. Mike Richards sad feelings. IDEK, you guys. His life is so sad. Except for the parts where he wins a whole bunch of things with his best bro, which is more than a whole bunch of NHL players or hopeful players can say. Maybe he's actually happy in his hometown fishing all the time and hanging out with his dog(s) and being mostly retired? I can only hope.

  2. Midnighter and Apollo. I've been fond of them for a while, but of course, I didn't care until they had relationship drama and broke up. They're back together and doing some sort of Orpheus and Eurydice storyline that involves a whole lot of punching people in the face, and I am here for this.

  3. Critical Role. I haven't talked about this mostly because convincing people that no, really, I do enjoy 3-5 hour episodes of voice actors playing D&D. It's a thing! It's great background noise because you can drift in and out, which is/was always my problem with podcasts.

  4. Yurio/Otabek from Yuri on Ice. This is apparently the big new shiny fandom, and I understand why. I enjoyed the show when I watched it, but I didn't have any desire to read/write the main ship of Yuuri/Viktor, mostly because the show gave me enough feelings about them and their relationship. But Yurio and Otabek do seem like an interesting secondary ship that could use some fleshing out, which is what intrigues me about them. How exactly do the two of them work it out? How does it progress over the years?

  5. Climbing & parkour. Things I am doing! I love doing them. So much of it is about focusing on your own body and what it's capable of and figuring out how to improve it. I could (should?) write entire posts about this later, so I won't ramble on too much about it here.

  6. Hexcells. Soothing puzzle game. I've been playing the daily infinite levels, which are super hit or miss, but which are still soothing. The main constructed levels are really excellent.

  7. You Must Build A Boat. Kind of a match-3 game that I also find soothing and goofy and fun. I have played through it a countless number of times over different devices.


Anyway, I am going to see Hidden Figures tomorrow, and hopefully I can add it to this list.
thedeadparrot: (ents)
(posted by on Dec. 31st, 2016 05:45 pm)
I did not do Yuletide this year, and I spent a good 6-7 months not writing anything. But I wrote two 20k+ stories in two separate fandoms. And that is really fucking weird. Anywho, here's what I've got.


Star Wars


The Galaxy Is Not a Cold Dead Place (21019 words) (Poe/Rey/Finn) - I grew up with so many Star Wars feelings. I still have shelves and shelves of EU books. I enjoyed the characters introduced in TFA, but I was frustrated that they got saddled with a plotline that was a bizarro carbon copy of A New Hope. This is my attempt to write a fun sort of space adventure-y story, filled with plot and feelings. Also, it was my attempt to answer 'why did Luke even leave in the first place?' Because I wanted to know.

Sing It Loud, Sing It Strong (1786 words) (Poe/Rey/Finn) - I liked the kinkmeme prompt, so then I wrote it. Porn didn't quite fit into the long Poe/Rey/Finn story, so it was nice to get a chance to write it elsewhere.

Come Together (Over Me) (3266 words) (Poe/Rey/Finn) - Feelings! I wasn't sure what to do with the prompt 'rivals to lovers' but I thought it might be fun to make Rey and Poe rivals. They thwarted my attempts to pit them against each other, though, because they were too nice and friendly.

MCU (Iron Man)


L’esprit de L’escalier (7032 words) (Tony/Rhodey) - I have been a huge fan of Tony/Rhodey for a long time, and Civil War was awful/great for them. The movie gestures to Rhodey's recovery, but there's still a lot of gaps there. I wanted to explore that time period and how they felt about it. Plus, I wanted to write about Tony pining. I am so predictable.

Just a Wrinkle (2589 words) (Tony & Rhodey gen) - My favorite thing about Tony and Rhodey's relationship is all their messy history together as friends. So naturally, time travel. I tried to Google historical info on MIT, but then I remembered that being vague works the best.

X-Men


A Hard Rain’s A-Gonna Fall (1169 words) (Charles/Erik) - If I was more dedicated, I would probably write a million words exploring what brought Charles and Erik back together in the future of Days of Future Past and all of the messy emotional work they'd need to do to get them to the point they are at when we see them. But I am not that dedicated, so I keep chipping off these tiny slices of that world, just to see what they look like.

How to Get Away with Murder


all the things left unsaid (1767 words) (Connor/Oliver) - Band AU! I still have a boatload of Connor/Oliver feelings, because they are such a disaster that juuuuust might work. It was fun trying to translate all of that messy disaster into a different sort of context.

The Good Place


Breaking Bread (622 words) (Eleanors Shellstrop gen) - I loved getting to come up with weird details in the same vein as the show.
Writing in sitcom fandoms is difficult, yo.

Hockey RPF


Living in Salt (24347 words) (Carter/Richards) - The first time I saw Pacific Rim, I predicted that there would be a ton of AUs, starting in hockey. Three years later, I am my own cliché. I ended up with a ton of sad Mike Richards feelings, and then read every single Carter/Richards fic on the internet that I could find. And then I wrote 20k words of it myself because that wasn't enough sad feelings. It did help.


meme/superlatives )

Bonus round:

A year in fic 2006 - My first year writing House fic! Damn, I can't believe that House/BSG series I wrote is ten years old. WTF, life.
thedeadparrot: (constantine)
(posted by on Dec. 27th, 2016 04:29 pm)
I AM NOT IN HOCKEY FANDOM, I SWEAR.

(shut up. shut up. shut up.)

Living in Salt (24358 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Hockey RPF
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Jeff Carter/Mike Richards
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Pacific Rim Fusion, Career Ending Injuries
Summary:

Pacific Rim AU. Jeff opens his eyes, and Mike opens his eyes. It's both his eyes and Mike's eyes. Their eyes.

thedeadparrot: (light)
(posted by on Nov. 30th, 2016 03:42 pm)
Last two stories on the list:

Breaking Bread (622 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Good Place (TV)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Eleanor Shellstrop & Real Eleanor Shellstrop
Additional Tags: Cooking, Community: trope_bingo
Summary:

Fake Eleanor and Real Eleanor bond in the kitchen.




all the things left unsaid (1767 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: How to Get Away with Murder
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Oliver Hampton/Connor Walsh
Characters: Michaela Pratt, Asher Millstone
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Rock Band, Community: trope_bingo
Summary:


"Well, something is going to break eventually," Michaela says, chin out, pushing through the awkwardness. "I'd rather it not be the band."

thedeadparrot: (obvious place)
(posted by on Nov. 13th, 2016 08:14 pm)
Come Together (Over Me) (3266 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Poe Dameron/Finn/Rey
Additional Tags: Community: trope_bingo
Summary:

Rey's not jealous. She's not.

thedeadparrot: (saving the world)
(posted by on Nov. 9th, 2016 02:14 am)
I have always loved my country, even when things are difficult, even when elections didn't go my way.

I remember going to bed on election night 2000 with high hopes that Gore would win the presidency with Florida safely in his pocket.

I remember being furiously angry that Bush managed to win re-election in 2004, hopeless and sad in the face of more war.

I remember celebrating in college when Barack Obama became our first black president, rushing out onto the green of my super-liberal campus in the middle of the night into a crowd, a feeling of pure joy.

I don't know how I feel right now. I'm awake at 2am because America has elected an actual monster as president because racists felt empowered to vote. I've seen some of the breakdowns. We minorities turned out. We waited in long lines. We donated. We put out a massive ground game. We called people. We canvassed. We did all the right things.

But the racists still won anyway.

We have always been surrounded by racists, sexists, the worst of human nature, but it's rarely felt as visceral as it has tonight. This is the ugliest of America, come to show its face in the voting booth.

We have voted in as president a man who can't be trusted with a fucking Twitter account. Even worse, the Republicans control all three branches of government, including both the House and Senate. Things will get uglier for so many people.

I live in a liberal bubble. I and my parents are US citizens. I have a comfy, bleeding heart liberal job in an industry that is always in more need of people like me. This only goes so far when it comes to federal policy, of course, but it helps soften the blow.

I can only hope the accelerationists are right. The ones who thought a Trump presidency would usher in a 100 years of light or whatever because he would burn it all down and we could start all over again. I thought the accelerationists were full of crap, because their ideas would mean that a lot of people would be hurt along the way. I can only hope that they are right, because now, a lot of people will be hurt for no reason with no light at the end of the tunnel.

The better people on my social media networks have been gearing up for a fight. Not like an armed revolution sort of thing, but the long slow slog of a political fight for the soul of America. I want to be like them, to put today (yesterday?) behind us and focus on what we can do to make our future better, brighter, safer. A future that I want America to have.

Maybe tomorrow I'll have the strength for that fight. I want to have it. But for now I'm going to go back to bed. It can wait until morning.
thedeadparrot: (madam president)
(posted by on Nov. 8th, 2016 09:20 pm)
Well, I've cared a lot about politics for a long time. I voted today for the (I hope) the first female president of the United States.

I wanted to write something warm and awesome and uplifting, reflecting back on the many presidential elections I've lived through, the ups and downs that I've felt.

But mostly, this is the part of the night with a lot of misery and panicking and crying. So. I might just go to sleep and wake up tomorrow morning to whatever fate awaits me.

See you on the other side?

Unless I can't sleep, of course.
thedeadparrot: (silent sigh)
(posted by on Nov. 1st, 2016 07:49 am)
I wrote more fic.

Just a Wrinkle (2589 words) by thedeadparrot
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Iron Man (Movies)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Rhodey" Rhodes & Tony Stark
Additional Tags: Time Travel, MIT Era, Community: trope_bingo
Summary:


"So, to get all the obvious questions out of the way: yes, the future is great, no, we don't have flying cars, yes, I do get to bang a lot of hot chicks, and the internet does transform the world by making it easier to watch videos of cats. Anything that I miss?"

.

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