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So, I've been quiet for the most part lately, because I've been busy with school stuff, and also because I've been emo over getting rejected from the last X internships I've applied for where X is a number I don't actually want to count to right now.
And while I intellectually understand that this may not entirely be a reflection on me, I also know that yes, it is a reflection on me, because that's what an interview is about. It's supposed to be them judging me as a potential employee. And I keep failing. Miserably.
Maybe if I had increased Y where Y is the number of internships I applied to as a whole, maybe I wouldn't be so fucked right now. But I applied to not an insignificant number of them.
So yeah, I have some opportunities left, but they're looking highly unlikely or highly undesirable. I think the best course of action is to beg a professor for research over the summer, though that's going to be spotty at best as well this late in the game.
'Scuse me while I go try to bolster my ego by rereading my old feedback and responding to the new.
And while I intellectually understand that this may not entirely be a reflection on me, I also know that yes, it is a reflection on me, because that's what an interview is about. It's supposed to be them judging me as a potential employee. And I keep failing. Miserably.
Maybe if I had increased Y where Y is the number of internships I applied to as a whole, maybe I wouldn't be so fucked right now. But I applied to not an insignificant number of them.
So yeah, I have some opportunities left, but they're looking highly unlikely or highly undesirable. I think the best course of action is to beg a professor for research over the summer, though that's going to be spotty at best as well this late in the game.
'Scuse me while I go try to bolster my ego by rereading my old feedback and responding to the new.