thedeadparrot

So, I've been quiet for the most part lately, because I've been busy with school stuff, and also because I've been emo over getting rejected from the last X internships I've applied for where X is a number I don't actually want to count to right now.

And while I intellectually understand that this may not entirely be a reflection on me, I also know that yes, it is a reflection on me, because that's what an interview is about. It's supposed to be them judging me as a potential employee. And I keep failing. Miserably.

Maybe if I had increased Y where Y is the number of internships I applied to as a whole, maybe I wouldn't be so fucked right now. But I applied to not an insignificant number of them.

So yeah, I have some opportunities left, but they're looking highly unlikely or highly undesirable. I think the best course of action is to beg a professor for research over the summer, though that's going to be spotty at best as well this late in the game.

'Scuse me while I go try to bolster my ego by rereading my old feedback and responding to the new.

My parrot has a Santa hat. This makes me happy.

1. I am totally writing an epic Lois/Clark Smallville future fic based on The Constant Gardener. I am only really, really a little ashamed of this.

2. When I was watching Citizen Kane for the first time, I was wondering whether young Kane and old Kane were played by the same person.

3. I eat a peanut butter and jelly bagel for breakfast every day.

4. I play RPGs, even though I usually hate the battles and the massive amounts of really boring talking. I still have not figured out why I like them.

5. Sometimes I feel like a poser-nerd.

6. I never seem to listen to U2 anymore, even though I obsessed over them for at least a year of my life, if not more.

7. I joined Tech House for their big screen TV (though being a meeting place for all the geeky people on campus didn't exactly hurt).

8. I am a horrifically bad student. I procrastinate on everything and almost never study. My only redeeming value is that I go to every class and generally listen to what the teacher says.

9. I miss being ten.

10. I think the reason why I can't stay away from the FMA fandom for very long is because I get more feedback from there than anywhere else. I feel guilty because of this.